February 21, 2008 by Avy.

1. I like doing random posts because they’re easy AND help you get to know moi a little better.
2. Whenever I see the word “any” I think it says “avy.”
3. I  will watch almost any sci-fi/fantasy flick JUST BECAUSE.
4. Erik and I are going to see Jumper tonight, but now I kinda wanna see The Spiderwyck Chronicles
5. I am sooooo sleepy. It’s almost painful to keep my eyes open.
6. I didn’t poop at all on Tuesday. Wednesday morning I had the assplosion of the century.
7. My boobs are probably a G-cup by now. They’re freakin huge.
8. I’m going to try  my hardest to have a natural birthing. Bitches have been doin this shit drug-free since the beginning of time. I think I can, too.
9. I’m so immature, sometimes I curse just because it makes me giggle.
10. I’m in the mood for “fun”… all the time… seriously… yep, that kinda fun.
11. I really don’t get why so many women don’t like sex. Are you effing kidding me?  It’s fun and it feels good.  Great cardio workout. Quit yer bitchin; it’s supposed to hurt a little.
12. I can’t sit still to save my life today. I think it’s because I’m sleeeeeeeeeeepy.
13. I love myself every day

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February 19, 2008 by Avy.

No, not the band…

I may have discovered the trick to having no morning sickness. Last night I took my pill at 9:30pm, a little ice cream at 10:30pm and slept around midnight. I don’t feel nauseous at all. I even did some early mornin riding. Hooray for nookie. Hooray for being nause-free (for now).

I had a dream on the bus this morning that I could feel the parasite moving around. That was weird. I’ve noticed my dreams have been much more vivid lately. I actually taste and smell.  I could always see hear and feel. The taste and smell is kind of new. Maybe that’s just because I’ve been meditating more. I zone out at my desk a lot and every morning and afternoon on the bus, I close my eyes for a while before startin up my Zune. Today, I didn’t have it at all. I stood at the bus stop with my eyes closed, letting the wind blow in my face for a while. It was just a good feeling. I dunno.

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February 18, 2008 by Avy.

Being at a hotel birthday party for one of my old Wiccan group friends and experiencing the funniest stereotypes ever. There were only 3 or 4 people from our group there, but it’s funny to see witches involved in the loss of virginity of another followed by insane group sex. Absolutely hilarious. It was fun times for sure. Looking back, I’d say I had way too much fun when I moved out of my mom’s place. Even more than before considering the freedom to have “fun” whenever I wanted. It was fun times though, and I did play as safely as one could in situations such as those.  But yeah. That was nifty.

Anyway, for  some reason, my hormones are nutty and I’m perpetually aroused. It’s kind of frustrating.

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December 31, 2007 by Avy.

My resolution for the new year is to go shopping fairly often, even if for only one thing. I have to buy things for me because it’s somehow important. The way I see it, I might as well. I’m not gonna splurge because I still have bills to pay, but buying shit to make me feel good in a grrly way is important.

I bought this really nice purple satin and lace top that makes me smile. I like satin tops because the have that sheen. anyway. That’s my superficial resolution.

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December 14, 2007 by Avy.

Sometimes I get annoyed with myself over things that bother me. There’s things that happen that don’t go away, but are dealt with. That’s why people have PTSD and develop social disorders. It’s a shame when you’re in the right rational mind to KNOW that lightning doesn’t have to strike twice. It’s just hard to get the emotional mind that point sometimes. Like how I don’t walk over the grates on the sidewalk because I had a nightmare that I fell in one, broke my ankle, was trapped and died. I tripped over my own feet once and stumbled onto one– causing an embarrassing anxiety issue. That was the only time I was actively afraid I was definitely going to fall in. Most times I’m just like, “Ahhh don’t walk on that!”

Anyway. There’s a couple of things in my life I’d like to forget so I can feel like an undamaged parcel. I feel like I’m always being careful and it takes so much energy sometimes. I don’t like feeling this way. It makes me want to go back on meds but I really don’t want to. I don’t want to be a person who needs to be medicated. I want that PTSD pill. Or hypnosis. Bah.

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