March 14, 2008 by Avy.

Something about being pregnant is making me want to be all that I can be [as a pagan mommy]. It’s kinda funny. It’s like I want to be about to articulate my beliefs to the Smallest of Bears so (s)he can know a thing or two about nature in not just a scientific way.

I feel more motivated to celebrate the sabbats and meditate when I have alone time. Ostara is next Thursday and I’m pretty much ready for it mentally.I was originally going to try going to an open circle to get used to working with other people, but now I’m not so sure.

As a Wiccan it’s bad for me to say it, but so many of “my people” are either just plain creepy or annoying. I’m starting to think maybe it’s me >_<
Just kidding, but seriously, I give up.

So I’m trying to read something pagany everyday. So far so good. I figure if I’m reading it, I can pass the positive vibes to the SOB. This should suffice until a few weeks from now when (s)he’ll be able to hear things outside the womb. Then I can play audiobooks and meditation music. Celtic Solstice is great. It’s one of the few CDs I ever liked enough to buy.

I’m pretty sure I can ramble on and on, so I’ll just stop now.

Bye.

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February 29, 2008 by Avy.

This is more for me than the handful of readers I have.  I’m mapping out the family astrology stuff. I dunno why I chose Chinese.  It’ll do for now.

main source = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_Zodiac

Me (Yin) Water Boar [North] - Honest, simple, gallant, sturdy, sociable, peace-loving, patient, loyal, hard-working, trusting, sincere, calm, understanding, thoughtful, scrupulous, passionate, intelligent. Can be naive, over-reliant, self-indulgent, gullible, fatalistic, materialistic.

Erik (Yang) Metal Dog [West] - Honest, intelligent, straightforward, loyal, sense of justice and fair play, attractive, amiable, unpretentious, sociable, open-minded, idealistic, moralistic, practical, affectionate, dogged. Can be cynical, lazy, cold, judgmental, pessimistic, worrier, stubborn, quarrelsome.

Baby (Yang) Earth Rat [Center] - Forthright, disciplined, systematic, meticulous, charismatic, hardworking, industrious, charming, eloquent, sociable, shrewd. Can be manipulative, cruel, dictatorial, rigid, selfish, obstinate, critical, over-ambitious, ruthless, intolerant, scheming, sturdy.

My inner animal - Rooster - Acute, neat, meticulous, organized, self-assured, decisive, conservative, critical, perfectionist, alert, zealous, practical, scientific, responsible. Can be over zealous and critical, puritanical, egotistical, abrasive, opinionated.

Erik’s inner animal - Rat - Forthright, disciplined, systematic, meticulous, charismatic, hardworking, industrious, charming, eloquent, sociable, shrewd. Can be manipulative, cruel, dictatorial, rigid, selfish, obstinate, critical, over-ambitious, ruthless, intolerant, scheming, sturdy.

Baby’s inner animal -  Rooster - Acute, neat, meticulous, organized, self-assured, decisive, conservative, critical, perfectionist, alert, zealous, practical, scientific, responsible. Can be over zealous and critical, puritanical, egotistical, abrasive, opinionated.

“The large-hour in which a person is born is their secret animal. It is a person’s own true sign which their personality is based on.”

I can only do this for myself for now.

Ox -  (Yin, 2nd Trine, Fixed Element Water): Dependable, calm, methodical, patient, hardworking, ambitious, conventional, steady, modest, logical, resolute, tenacious. Can be stubborn, narrow-minded, materialistic, rigid, demanding.

Blah blah blah. That was amusing for a while. Back to work I go.

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February 21, 2008 by Avy.

I need some effing sleep. I just spent some times working on a BoS for the SOB… electronically. I swear I’m a technopagan sometimes. I need a np. bye

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October 31, 2007 by Avy.

Happy Halloween. Happy Samhain. Happy Wednesday!

I’m just in for a quickie report. Listen up:

• Got my phone back. Yay!

• I look sooooo cute today, it’s sickening. I’m a Ranzuki gyaru.

• I burned my taste buds off two days ago and still can’t taste anything sweet.

• I’m sad cuz Steve gave me a Ring Pop and I can’t taste it!

• I’m really happy!

• I has a secret and no one knows but Joeh (and stfu btw mi amigo)

• Tonight  will be my first Sahmain ritual with another person in like 10 years

• This will also be my first ritual with Erik ever.

• I really want that Ring Pop right now.

• I came like a champion last night.

• We get “happy cake” at work today!

• I may be getting musical again. Seriously.

• Murder Party comes from Netflix today!!!

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October 25, 2007 by Avy.

I’m tired.

My mind’s on overdrive and I can’t focus on my work. I got a lot done so far, but now I’m ugh.

I totally failed at making rosemary oil the herbal way. It worked with eucalyptus. I dunno why I couldn’t get it right this time. Ah well. I’ll stick to the book; essentials and carriers only.

Samhain is next Wednesday. I was thinking of starting a hardcover super feel-good grimoire as opposed to my electronic one. I don’t see the point. Even filled up, it’s just going to sit there and collect dust after a while. I did bring my lil pumpkin home though. It’s on my altar. I’ll have to properly set that up tonight. It’ll be a good project. To be honest, I’m losing the energy for it.

I get excited about things. Really enthused and inspired. Then somethin goes click and none of it seems to matter. On the plus side, I’ve lost my appetite. I’m physically hungry, but the concept of eating is gross. That’ll make lunch easier. I feel like a good Fiona Apple song. Sheesh.

On the plus side, I just drank a lot of water and now I have to pee. God I love TMI.

Sarcasm: it’s what’s for dinner.

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