December 14, 2007 by Avy.

Sometimes I get annoyed with myself over things that bother me. There’s things that happen that don’t go away, but are dealt with. That’s why people have PTSD and develop social disorders. It’s a shame when you’re in the right rational mind to KNOW that lightning doesn’t have to strike twice. It’s just hard to get the emotional mind that point sometimes. Like how I don’t walk over the grates on the sidewalk because I had a nightmare that I fell in one, broke my ankle, was trapped and died. I tripped over my own feet once and stumbled onto one– causing an embarrassing anxiety issue. That was the only time I was actively afraid I was definitely going to fall in. Most times I’m just like, “Ahhh don’t walk on that!”

Anyway. There’s a couple of things in my life I’d like to forget so I can feel like an undamaged parcel. I feel like I’m always being careful and it takes so much energy sometimes. I don’t like feeling this way. It makes me want to go back on meds but I really don’t want to. I don’t want to be a person who needs to be medicated. I want that PTSD pill. Or hypnosis. Bah.

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December 14, 2007 by Avy.

These are not my idea of people who should be deported. Read this story.  It’s bound to make you sick, but it goes to show how ass backwards our immigration system is.

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