October 31, 2007 by Avy.

Happy Halloween. Happy Samhain. Happy Wednesday!

I’m just in for a quickie report. Listen up:

• Got my phone back. Yay!

• I look sooooo cute today, it’s sickening. I’m a Ranzuki gyaru.

• I burned my taste buds off two days ago and still can’t taste anything sweet.

• I’m sad cuz Steve gave me a Ring Pop and I can’t taste it!

• I’m really happy!

• I has a secret and no one knows but Joeh (and stfu btw mi amigo)

• Tonight  will be my first Sahmain ritual with another person in like 10 years

• This will also be my first ritual with Erik ever.

• I really want that Ring Pop right now.

• I came like a champion last night.

• We get “happy cake” at work today!

• I may be getting musical again. Seriously.

• Murder Party comes from Netflix today!!!

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October 30, 2007 by Avy.

You may be offended by this post. I may use the n-word. I suggest you skip it if you’re more than likely going to bitch and moan about it later.

So one of my phones must have slipped out of my pocket on my way in to work today. I’m just now realizing this. Of course it’s the new one. Nothing fancy, but enough for some ghetto bastard to pocket instead of turning it in. Now maybe my anger is premature, but let’s be real. I got on a crowded bus full of loud, niggerific bastards  with 2 phones. Both were turned on. Now, I have one phone, while the other is MIA and switched off.

If you found someone’s phone and had the intention of returning it, you would not switch it off.

The only possible upside is that the bus driver might have turned it in to the SEPTA terminal and that’s why my calls are going straight to voicemail.

I highly doubt it.

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October 29, 2007 by Avy.

JUDDDD

Today I decided to start the Johnson Up Day Down Day Diet. Basically, it keeps your metabolism guessing. I’m convinced this is smarter than the Weight Watchers way of having me eat the same amount everyday. with WW, I was always trying hard to eat all my points. I don’t think that diet is best for me and I think that’s part of why I hit that plateau. Hopefully this works. It makes a lot of sense, and I think I’ll have no problem sticking with it.

Hair

The time has come for a change. I need to get extensions or a wig. Winter is coming and a wig is just a hat, so I may do that. Plus, it’ll help me refrain from cutting. I can get Lacey to braid my real hair once a week and then wear the wig as my hair grows safely without being abused by the heat of flat irons and blow dryers. I’m thinking of something simple. I may even get extensions if the stylist says my hair is strong enough for it. Time will tell.

SL Gyarusa

I play Second Life semi-frequently. Maybe 2-3 hours, 3 times a week. When my old account was down, I created a new character and left her alone once I recovered my old password. Now I use that character to “hang out” with my Japanese pen pal. Well on Saturday I was bored and went to look for gyaru to see where there was fun to be had. I found this one girl who’d bought land and made a little gyaru hangout and store, etc. This is kewl because a) I can play SL and cook/clean/code at the same time, b) I don’t have to leave the effing house. I know it’s sad, but right now I feel fat and ugly and all I want are cuddles and sleep. I sometimes don’t even want to talk at all.

Plus, this group is great for when my real gyarusa can’t get together.Andrea’s got this massive test (she’s a college prof and taking a masters thingy that sounds like hell) so I don’t wanna bug her. That thing is way more important the hair and make-up. Jerilyn’s got work like crazy and I for one understand the need to make the monehs. Then there’s me goin to the gym, trying to get more photography work, and see family more often– even though I’m really just too tired in general.

I thought doing more would make me less tired. Nope. Tried that yesterday and I’m beat right now. I slept so hard and did not wanna get back up.

Ah well.

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October 25, 2007 by Avy.

is that people don’t really want you to be honest with them. They want you to shut up, smile, and do as they say. Any relationship can have this problem.

One friend I used to loathe, but always respect was Melissa. She’s always been 100% straight up cuz that way, no one can call you a liar or a bush-beater or whatever.

She and I used to marvel at how people want you to be honest with them, but then they get pissy when you take them up on it. I’ve been guilty of being passive-aggressive because I’ve been too tired for real conflict.

Today I almost made the mistake of having a conversation I knew wasn’t going to go anywhere. Stalemate times ten. Instead of being passive-aggressive, I just left well enough alone. You ask the same question with the same “No” answer enough and eventually the conversation gets shorter and shorter. It’s not rocket science. But what pisses me off is how it’ll be my fault for wanting to level up and do something that’s supposed to be good.

People say they want you to open up, but that’s only if it’s something they want to hear.

Moral of the story: Don’t have dream/goals. If you do, don’t share them. Keep it to yourself because you’re probably the only one who cares.

Class dismissed.

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October 25, 2007 by Avy.

I’m tired.

My mind’s on overdrive and I can’t focus on my work. I got a lot done so far, but now I’m ugh.

I totally failed at making rosemary oil the herbal way. It worked with eucalyptus. I dunno why I couldn’t get it right this time. Ah well. I’ll stick to the book; essentials and carriers only.

Samhain is next Wednesday. I was thinking of starting a hardcover super feel-good grimoire as opposed to my electronic one. I don’t see the point. Even filled up, it’s just going to sit there and collect dust after a while. I did bring my lil pumpkin home though. It’s on my altar. I’ll have to properly set that up tonight. It’ll be a good project. To be honest, I’m losing the energy for it.

I get excited about things. Really enthused and inspired. Then somethin goes click and none of it seems to matter. On the plus side, I’ve lost my appetite. I’m physically hungry, but the concept of eating is gross. That’ll make lunch easier. I feel like a good Fiona Apple song. Sheesh.

On the plus side, I just drank a lot of water and now I have to pee. God I love TMI.

Sarcasm: it’s what’s for dinner.

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