September 21, 2007 by Avy.

I typically don’t do this sorta thing but I figured I’d put some stuff up. I’ll never post like this again. I’m going to build a page this weekend and add new items. It’s gonna be sweet!

I want a fan club.

You know you wanna.

Now,  support a starvin artist.

6 x 4 “Fleur” Postcards

16″ x 13″ BW Framed Cacti

5″ x 8″ Cactus Journal

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September 18, 2007 by Avy.

I’m stealing this from Myk to boost my mood.

10 Things I like About MYSELF

1. I can be funny sometimes.

2. I’m willing to try new things (sometimes with a little prodding).

3. I like learning new things.

4. I’m typically a good friend.

5. I can see my own tongue.

6. If I focus enough, I can write decently.

7. When I shoot the right photo it makes me feel good, even if other people don’t get it.

8. Instead of just complaining about being fat and ugly, I’m actually doing something about it.

9. I got my driving permit on the first try.

10. I have a job I like and am not unemployed w/ 5 “baby daddies” (and all that ghetto stuff).

I tag: Whoever wants to do this. 

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September 18, 2007 by Avy.

“Things don’t have to be this way
Catch me on a better day

Bury me above the clouds
All the way from here
Take away the things I need
Take away my fear

Hide me in a hollow sound
Happy evermore
Everything I had to give
Gave out long before”

And of course:

“The trick is to keep breathing.”

I’m having a hard time these days and all I wanna do is crawl in a hole and die quietly. That’s crazy talk and I know it. I want the PTSD pill.  I was missing Johnny on the bus this morning cuz I was really down last night. Still am, but whatever. It’s funny how someone partially irks you with one behaviour, but it also is a big part of why you like them. He’d look at me like I was crazy sometimes and pop in his 2 cents, then go on to screamin about steaks and cokewhores. Yip. That was el juan. I miss the random talks. I could go right downstairs and he’d always be there and now he’s not and it’s selfish to be all like “I need a Johnny moment” but anything else would be bullshit. He reminded me of the good parts of different people. I guess the only bad part was the powdery stuff. We didn’t even get to be friends that long. Which sucks.

I can’t figure some things out and it’s making me tired. I’m generally okay but there’s key things in my life that I just don’t get and it’s not simple yes/no  stuff. I used to think overanalyzing was the safe way to make decisions. It’s not. It’s the crazy way. Too many variables and you get soup. Right now my brain is soup.

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September 16, 2007 by Avy.

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September 14, 2007 by Avy.

I’m not 100% broke, but I can’t make frivolous purchases right now.

That said, I just eBayed The Complete Book of Incense, Oils & Brews by Scott Cunningham. I’ve been needing this. I’ve decided it was worth the $14 total. It ships 2nd day air… shibby. I can’t wait to make wonderful things to relax and invigorate. I’ve made candles before. When I was 13 or 14 I made a bunch in one weekend and got bored after that. Hyper-focusing is BAD! I wish I had better control of my behavioral issues lol. Like counting things. Sheesh. Numbers are bad.

Anyway, I’m most excited about making the soaps. I want to make some for all my women-folks and give them in nice baskets full of stuff I’ve made. I think that’s from the heart.

Anyhoo. I am really psyched about this book coming. I let Operation: Witchy Library fall by the waistside/wasteside/whatever. I’ll put myself on the 1book per month path. Yes, yes.

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