August 6, 2007 by Avy.

So OpenMoko is Linux’s response to the iPhone. This is kinda making me moist. I’m just sayin…

I got a new yahoo. It’s not rocket science, but at least it’s something. For the 1, 2, 3, 4… maybe 6 of you that I still talk to, be sure to ask & add me up.

I also joined PCWorld’s forum. Reason? I’m killing and reincarnating my laptop tonight while I unpack some things and set up my other computers. I don’t even think I should unpack anything. I’d rather take it to storage and sort out what I can sell or trash. Oh yeah, ADD. I’m rebirthing my laptop with Linux. I’ve been eager to learn something new. Linux (and lots of progs for Linux) = free. I don’t have a WinXPH disc to reformat and load, so I’m goin for Linux. I refuse to give MS any more of my money.

Anyway. This will make me feel good. I miss geekin out and talking to geeky people about stuff. I love learning. I’ve already learned a bunch today… and relearned some things as well. So yay!

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August 6, 2007 by Avy.

So I’m better now. It took a few hours, but yeah. I’m good.

My mom called when I went to my weekly Weight Watchers meeting. (I lost 6 pounds! woot) Long story short: My lil sis screwed up and now my mom’s taking her dog away. Lacey’s had the dog for like 3 weeks. It sucks. So today I’m almost arguing w/ my mom about how stupid she’s being. I explain that a dog isn’t a playstation, cell phone or computer. You don’t just give away someone’s dog. Lacey takes good care of it, too. Anyway, my mom proceeds to say, “I’m her mother… She disrespected me… Everybody sees….” Basically its a clit contest for my mom. Everyone knows lacey screwed up this weekend because she wouldn’t drop it. Instead she’s calling me all weekend to stay pissed. She could’ve turn off her cell and had a good weekend, but no.

Anyway, now the dog has to go to the SPCA tomorrow and I’m the opposite of happy about it. She won’t listen to reason, AND she doesn’t have the decency to find a rescue. I seriously loathe her ass sometimes.

Bah… back to being happy about weight loss and crap.

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August 6, 2007 by Avy.

I shouldn’t be so susceptible to other peoples’ insinuations.

I got to weork late today. Not a huge deal. But I looked at my gmail when I got in and an old ‘friend’ said hi. I logged onto yahoo msgr and probably shouldn’t have.

I’m just tired of thinking now. I didn’t give him my number because it never changes. He apologised for the ladst blowout we had. I accepted but I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I don’t think I’ll have to after this. It’s just bad because I’m now bleeding from old wounds again and I just wanna go off in a cave, bawl my eyes out and die.

I should get a new number, change my email, move to Nicaragua and become a nun. I dunno.

It sucks that someone I used to look up to so much and want to BE (mentally at least) ended up being someone I get sick to think about. And really it’s because of shit. Just plain shit. I swear I miss him to death sometimes (despite only seeing each other a handful of times in the past god knows how many years). But I can’t trust him to trust me to handle my own life.

So now I get to sit here and obsess over shit I’ve been putting behind me, while smiling and being cute and sweet and efficient at work, when really I wanna go back in the bathroom cry and puke til this feeling goes away. I wish I could puke out every detail of every little thing I know. I wish I could erase the last 5 years of my life and start from scratch. It’s just stupid.

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