Fatty Fatty Fat Fat Fat

July 17, 2007 by Avy.

I had ice cream for breakfast and got a little on my shirt. I got it off once I got to work.
I’m frustrated. I’m not losing anymore weight. I ate dinner way too late last night and I should have not eaten. I can’t go to the gym today, but I’m gonna try and find the gym at the place I’m staying this week and go everyday. I need to. But I’m so sick of not losing weight that I don’t even feel hungry most times until it hurts. It’s really frustrating. I don’t want anything to eat ever again, but I have to eat or I’ll die. And to top it off, hunger hurts.  I really do feel like the fattest ugliest mass of shit in the world right now.  I can’t get back to my healthy weight and it’s making me feel gross and there’s nothing anyone can say or do short of locking me in a gym with nothing but liquids and vitamins for a month. Maybe that’s drastic. I don’t know. I just need to go to fat camp or something or die now because what’s the point of living unhealthily? It’s  It’s one think to be sexy and curvy. It’s another to be unhealthy and fat.  Blah blah blah. Waaaa. I’m disgusted with myself. I have realistic goals that I can’t seem to achieve. I eat those froze 200-300 calorie things for lunch. I try to eat smaller portions at dinner. I eat grapes for breakfast. I need to spend like every minute I’m awake on a treadmill. Me = Formerly kinda hot, currently not. And it’s frustrating to put it lightly.

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