August 21, 2008 by Avy.

I’m so sick of so-called friends blowing me off when I need them. Let’s make it clear that I hardly ask anyone for help. Mainly because I’m stubborn, but also because I don’t wanna be a burden. And my wedding list is very VERY tight. Of the 50 guests, 20 are friends and their significant others. I took one person off who’d been my friend for ages yet doesn’t think I’m worth talking to over a fucking shower even I didn’t feel like going to. I can only apologise for something so stupid a couple of times before saying fuck it. Now another friend pulls out of the wedding last night for a super last minute work thing. I don’t buy it coming from the same person who offered to help me move only to ignore my 2 calls, texts and instant messages. There’s no way he didn’t get them but I let it go. But this is my wedding now. It’s one of those things that are bullshit except for the people you have there to enjoy it with. So yes I’m annoyed about the money that may as well have just gone into a paper-shredder, but what I’m more annoyed with is the fact that it was reserved for closest friends but people sure have been lacking.

Let’s see, I never go anywhere or do anything, but when I do, I invite people. I plan ahead and that’s good for some and not for others. I think it’s great that these people go out to dinners, the beach, etc and don’t feel the desire to invite me. I have learned my lesson. That whole friends = family thing dies once you stop going to a club regularly. So to hell with it.

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August 20, 2008 by Avy.

I found this site that looks pretty good. I learned a lot. It was pretty simple. When I’m ready to drive, I think I might be able to get a Fit. I just have to try to get a loan from the site. Apparently you don’t even have to have great credit. They don’t just base approvals on your credit score. Oh! And I could use it for a used car, too. Hopefully I could afford a brand new car, but if I just wanted to buy a previously-owned, they could help with that, too. I think it’s worth looking into. If you need wheels but are tight on cash, check out the link.

Car Loans

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August 19, 2008 by Avy.

I’m convinced I’m approaching that time. I’m exhausted. I was this tired yesterday, only yesterday I was home so I was more comfortable. Yesterday my feet hurt so bad it was hard to make it from the bedroom to the living room, so I stayed in bed until 10:30am.

Today, my feet still hurt, but I can’t afford to stay home. They hurt a little less than yesterday, but not THAT much better. What’s slightly embarassing is that I can’t even get the shoe on my right foot. And it’s Erik’s shoe. I can’t fit my flip flops and those are a size and a half up. What almost had me in tears was that my wedding shoes, which should be too big, won’t fit at all. Like not even a little bit. So I’ll be wearing the really thin white flip flops throughout the entire wedding & reception.

I know I am in the home stretch, but with 5 weeks to go, I’m really feeling beat up inside. It’s mostly emotional/mental, but the feet are the biggest deal. That and my right hip (today). Maybe they’re doing that spready-thing? So yeah. It’s really no fun to walk and I actually need to walk around at work. The steps are unavoidable. I just feel like this miserable, pitiful blarg. I dunno what a blarg is, but you get me.

And I have a doctor’s appointment today. If they tell me I’m fatter or my BP is higher or whatever, I’m gonna scream. I just need to go home and lay down.

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August 14, 2008 by Avy.

Birth control is NOT abortion.

I don’t care if you’re dem or repub, Bush is being an ass with this one. He’s trying to say birth control counts as abortion.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t want Dwandeesha or Peggy-Sue having their 5th kid on my frickin tax dollars because they weren’t on the pill.

Lack of birth control will not make the world a more abstinent place. We’ll just be even more over-crowded because sex is too much fun to pull out every time and condoms are not 100% effective 100% of the time. It’s just a fact..

And it’s not even just about welfare. I have one kid in my flippin belly now and as a soon to be married woman, I don’t plan on ever getting pregnant again. We have an heir and no need for a spare lest we feel the need to adopt a girl. Key word: ADOPT.

There are plenty of people who choose to not have children OR to just adopt one that’s already here. I say high five to that.

Whatever your reason for being pro-birth control, just sign the thing and help put an end to this nonsense.

Birth control is NOT abortion.

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August 12, 2008 by Avy.

I totally forgot my prenatal appointment yesterday. I remember the one for the hospital just fine…, but the other one? Nein. I am a bad incubator! Actually no I’m not. I work hard for the fetus. I just have too much on my mind. Georgia.

I’m convinced I’m never getting married again or even planning anything that involves lots of planning and shipping and dressing. Too much stress and I’ll have none of it. Nada.

I realize I need Sue Burns to not be in California anymore. I need her massage therapy expertise. She has the skills that help me breathe when I’m congested. Right now, I need the magic worked upon meine neck-shoulders… and shoulder blades… and back. I need a chair massage.  Suuuuuuuuuuue!!! Get back here NOW! I’m hurting.

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August 11, 2008 by Avy.

So I’m basically supposed to be resting (laying down) as much as possible. One of the delivery nurses who was monitoring me during my NST was very clear with me on that one. It’s kinda funny. Since she reminds me of my mom, Joan, and Jody, it didn’t bother me that she was so direct. It’s not like she was beachy. You just would’ve thought we’ve known each other all our lives or something.

So my feet are super swollen and my hands are too. No headaches or blurred vision so I’m cool.  I will admit putting my feet up helps. I have to rub them every day or I’d be in tears because of the right foot. It’s hard out here for a bear.

On the plus side, I’m healthy as hell. I have so many vitamins and minerals inside me, it’s a wonder I still need food. I’m sure I could live off vitamins, but Erik  asks that I save that experiment until AFTER Xavier is out of my womb of doom.

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August 7, 2008 by Avy.

Doris Lessing - “Think wrongly, if you please, but in all cases think for yourself.”

Just because it’s in style this season doesn’t mean YOU have to wear it.
We the chunky should not be rockin the ultra mini skirts. No. It just doesn’t work.
I feel I am too dark for blonde hair, but warm brown works. That doesn’t mean you can’t have it and be happy.

What made me think of this? I saw two teens on the bus recently that were OBVIOUSLY goin for the ganguro look but were full of fail. We’ve all been there. I could post 3 specific photos of me super failing because I used gal colours that didn’t compliment me. Why? Because I was using a magazine example that was done on a gal with a tan, but not so tanned that she was as dark as me.

I’m just sayin… get your own sexy and use the mags as a guide.

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August 6, 2008 by Avy.

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”
- Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

That can go for so many things. The first that pop to mind are larger issues like global warming, recycling, the AIDS epidemic, animal cruelty, child labor, domestic violence… the list goes on.

I feel like there are so many things that bother me but there’s next to no point in talking because nothing happens. Repetitive complaining doesn’t do much good, if any at all. I can’t go punching and kicking every person who pisses me of. There’s only so much that can be sorted out verbally and I’m all out of nice and polite.

Back to my point. Sometimes I agree with that quote, but these days I don’t see the point opening my mouth. It tends to be a waste of time.

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August 5, 2008 by Avy.

So, I was reading about stem cells again and this is what I learned today. It’s a wee bit gross but way cool nonetheless. Basically, your menstrual blood can come in handy if you get osteoporosis, heart disease, stroke, Alzheimer’s, Parkinson’s disease, etc. Why? Because you’ve got stem cells in there! Duh. Pay attention people… it’s in the title.Okay, so I originally thought your stem cells only worked for you, but I was full of fail. Those period cells (as I so childishly like to call them) will work for your kids, parents and siblings. So if they have the degenerative disorders of doom (DDoD) I mentioned above, you can help.There’s this special service called C’elle you can get. You should check the site out for all the super detailed info. They have a kit to buy if you want to get it for me.. hint, hint? Use this special promotion code: 241. If you end up buying, it’ll save you some money. And in case you want to see what people have the kit are saying, check out the C’elle Client Testimonials.

Aren’t you glad I told you? Who loves you?

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August 5, 2008 by Avy.

I have orange juice w/ calcium every morning with breakfast. I always have fruit of some sort– typically a banana or grapes. I lecture other people to have fruit with breakfast, too. But no. They don’t listen unless they have a penis. I’m serious. WTF is up with women only having a cup of coffee for breakfast? I’m serious. No wonder you’re skin and bones. Eat a sandwich! It’s just not healthy.

I’m all for fitting into the clothes you like, but at what cost? I don’t want to be skinny with high cholesterol or a weird metabolism or dried out skin. I want to be thin and healthy. Think Jessica Biel with way bigger boobs. Yeah. That works for me. I’m not a fan of the coffee diet. Oh well.

In other news, the outfit I’m wearing today made Annette forget I’m 8mos pregnant. That’s hilarious. I looked in the mirror and totally get it though. Diagonal stripes are amazing. Haaady  gyaru much? Yeah. And my hair + make up are GREAT as well.

Today is a pretty day.

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August 4, 2008 by Avy.

Xavier is moving SO much. It’s insane!

I’m watching my stomach move around and it looks like something out of a freaky parasitic-themed sci-fi movie. I get the good giggles everytime I see it. He was just going for about 3 minutes straight. I’m sure that’s the longest ever.

I’m not the biggest fan of being pregant, but this is pretty amazing.
Pregnancy in itself is just gross: puking, swelling, farting… I’m just sayin, if I weren’t a tomboy, the gas would be embarassing. But then there’s the cool parts: kicking/movement… um… yeah, that’s about it. I’m just not all girly about the pregnancy. I look at it in a purely scientific manner. There is a parasite inside me. I happen to love my little parasite and will maim/kill anyone who tries to harm him. But yeah, he’s still a parasite for the time being. He’ll pop out of this host and be a super nifty human on his own, but that time won’t come for another 7 weeks or so.

I’m being patient.

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August 4, 2008 by Avy.

There is so much going on right now.

“I know you can be overwhelmed and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed?”

I feel like my mind is going 100 miles a minute and I don’t know why. I did a spreadsheet to sort out the expenses I have for this month alone and it was enough to make me cry.  I didn’t cry, but I could have… You know what I mean.

I have to get a minor alteration done to my dress but I have to go to the bridal shop tomorrow because today’s my mom’s birthday. I totally have to figure something out for her. I’m so sick of being poor. It’s almost like I’m already unemployed. What the crap?!

This too shall pass.

I feel like a crappy daughter right now even though my mom doesn’t give a damn about birthdays. It’s just totally not like me to drop the ball so hard like this. I should be shot. After delivery.

Planning for Xavier is crazy too, because in my head it’s all so overwhelming. I know once he’s out it’ll be crazier, but I can handle that. What I can’t handle is my own mind turning against me. I get onto the craziest trains of thought and it’s hard to focus on the here and now. I need a nap.  I need an outlet for all this energy. It’s effin with my head.

And the sooner it’s all over, the better. Let this wedding be done with. I want to be married, but I feel like all the planning is a hassle. After the wedding, let Xavier be born and healthy. I’m sick of all this shower talk and thinking about the painting to be done and clean air. Just let him be out and about and FINE.

Sheesh.

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August 3, 2008 by Avy.

Yeah so I’m convinced that as much as I love my job, I need to be in the house wif teh smallest of bears like ALL the tiem. Yes, yes? Yes, yes.  I’m pretty sure that’s what I need. I don’t wanna pay for daycare. I don’t wanna stick him with my mom or Erik’s. I think this is best. He pretty much needs to be right here all the time. Plus, my maternity leave won’t be much by the time he pops out. I’ve had to use so much PTO with all this high risk hospital crap. Sheesh. I’m never getting pregnant again. Next kid? eBay. And that’s IF we’re not all diapered out.

I’m just sayin. It may be time for me to say goodbye to corporate America. I wish I could be part time so I can keep the benefits. I’ll have to check that out. It’s grown-up strategy time.

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